When I’m sick (or just lazy and tired) I just want to watch movies and sleep. YouTube is a never ending source of entertainment to whittle away the hours of feverish, achy exhaustion. I open YouTube and scroll my options…unlimited, anything from edifying talks, raunchy tv shows, old westerns, modern chick flicks…you name it.
In the process of scrolling this sentence came to mind:
When we have good intentions but make bad decisions. Hmmmm…
We do the Bible studies, go to church, buy all the new books that will help transform our existence into abundant living, join another online study that specifically targets comparison, disappointment or depression. Some of us even memorize scripture, confess our faults, go on missions, feed the hungry, fast, seek stillness and strain to cultivate intimacy. We want the more, but our lives feel more lifeless than abundant. We want to have an intimate relationship with Jesus, but the next movie coming out, our boyfriend or chocolate ice-cream seems much more exciting.
We are all familiar with these comforting words of Jesus:
“Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” -Matthew 11:28
We truly want to know them as reality but let’s be honest; most of the time we just don’t.
So even with our good intentions we find ourselves choosing netflicks over solitude; we find ourselves pregnant before marriage, living in fornication but still believing in Jesus; we reach for a cookie and bypass the spinach. We say we trust Jesus but we worry about our past, our future, our health, our kids, our barrenness (spiritually or physically) our hang nails and split ends.
Why do we have such good intentions but make such bad decisions?
Ever feel like you are dying for life -the true life, the life that it speaks about in John chapter 1 and 10.
“In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.”
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.”
We believe in “Life” but our daily, moment by moment choices don’t reflect that belief.
We will say with Paul, “to live is Christ and to die is gain”, but do we believe it?
Do we believe that Christ is better, that Christ is enough, or even truly believe that Christ loves us? Do we as “believers” believe?
But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name: -John 1:12
Jesus answered and said to them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He sent.” -John 6:29
Could it be that we have good intentions but make bad decisions because we don’t truly believe; instead we are unbelieving believers or atheistic Christians?
Dear Jesus, please help our unbelief and increase our understanding.
He is still saying, “Come to Me.”
Will we listen?
“Give me the love that leads the way
The Faith that nothing can dismay
The Hope no disappointments tire
The Passion that’ll burn like fire
Let me not sink to be a clod
Make me Thy fuel, Flame of God”